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I fell in love with you

 

Because I fell in love with you because

I fell in love with you because I fell in love with you

because I fell in love

with you because I fell in love with you

because I fell

in love with you because I fell in

love

with you because I fell in love with you because

I fell in love

with you because I fell in love with you because

I fell in love with

you

because I fell in love

with you

because I fell in love

with you

because I fell

in love

with you

because I fell in love with you

because I fell in love with you because

I fell in

love

 

with you

 

And I say it

17 times because

17 is a prime number

(it is indivisible)

 

And I say it

because

I cannot hide it like

a sore thumb or a hard-on

 

And I say it because I

cannot keep myself from saying I fell in love with you

because I fell in love with you because

I fell in love with you because I fell

in love with you

because I fell in love with you

because I fell

in love with you because I fell in love

with you

 

because

 

my mind runs around like

a mad dog. So

 

go deep

 

on me

go hard on me

 

because

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

-ni Makoy Dakuykoy

On Shadows
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In haste I bought Junichiro Tanizaki's In Praise of Shadows.

The book is an essay on aesthetics, a Japanese reflection about architecture, jade, food, toilets and space in buildings. Tanizaki thought about the concussion between the shadows of traditional Japanese interiors and the brilliant light of modernization of everything.

 

Currently reading
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Bakit Michael Crichton?

Ang ganda kasing diversion ng mga nobela niya. Hindi ung usual na binabasa kong poetry books. Ung mga akda niya, may langkap ng science, thriller, suspense. Nosebleed man ako sa halos lahat ng terms, na nakakatuwang isipin na sa panahon ngayon, parang wala ng imposible sa mga sinasabi niyang hi-tech gadgets sa mga kuwento. Parang lahat, posible na, at baka nagawa na ng mga imbentor.

I particularly like his novel "Rising Sun." Iba ung approach niya dito, kaiba sa mga naunang nabasa ko nang libro niya. Nagulat ako kasi nagustuhan ko itong libro, to think na nagdadalawang-isip pa ako nung binili ko ito. Mukha kasing hindi maganda ang plot. Detective novel kasi, at hindi sci-fi thriller katulad ng Sphere at Lost World.

Hindi ko pa natatapos basahin itong nobelang ito, at talagang napupuyat ako dahil dito. Hehe.

 

from "Averno"
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Omens

Louise Gluck

I rode to meet you: dreams
like living beings swarmed around me
and the moon on my right side
followed me, burning.

I rode back: everything changed.
My soul in love was sad
and the moon on my left side
trailed me without hope.

To such endless impressions
we poets give ourselves absolutely,
making, in silence, omen of mere event,
until the world reflects the deepest needs of the soul.



-after Alexander Pushkin

dragged me to hell, heaven, and eternity
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Jampacked ang Conspiracy Bar! Bukod sa mga kasama (mga tagasuporta ng pambansa-demokratikong kilusan), nandun din sina Jess Santiago at Bobby Balingit.

First time kong makaharap si Axel Pinpin na nakakausap ko na thru email bago pa siya nabilanggo.

Sa event na yun, na-reaffirm ko kung saang politika gustong lumakad ng puso't kaluluwa ng pagsusulat ko.

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Bakit ko ba pnapakinggan ngayon ang Borderline ni Madonna? Jologs..

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2 Lived to Tell

Mom's old photos
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High school grad photo. Possible also that this was her grad photo after she finished her vocational class.

 

I'm not sure kung bakit sa bubong ng bahay siya nagpa-picture. Pwede naman sa garden.

 

When I saw this photo, I thought she joined the Miss Linggas Dayat contest. Hindi raw. The gown was her project for her vocational class. Her batch modeled their own works. I saw this gown pa noon in its splendour, bago mangatngat ng mga daga.

Lumang LIRA workshop poem
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Paghihiwalay

Iniwan mo akong kapiling ang lagim
Para iyong sundan ang mabining ulan,
Walang tigatig kong niyakap ang dilim.

Ang katotohana’y naglabas ng talim:
Habang mga daho’y nagkukulay-haban,
Iniwan mo akong kapiling ang lagim.

Nagdamot ang langit, gabi’y makulimlim
Pagkat nagluluksa’ng pintakasing buwan.
Walang tigatig kong niyakap ang dilim.

Di mo inunawa’ng samong mataimtim:
Hindi na ba ako ang ‘yong kasiyahan?
Iniwan mo akong kapiling ang lagim.

Ang mundo ko ngayo’y  naging kulay itim,
At ang liwanag ay di na matagpuan.
Walang tigatig kong niyakap ang dilim.

Ang iyong pag-ibig na ubod ng sakim
Ang tanging tumapos sa ‘king kabuluhan.
Iniwan mo akong kapiling ang lagim,
Walang tigatig kong niyakap ang dilim.

 

 

*Ang larawan ay mula dito.

Where will we be after the present life?
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Finally! I have finished downloading the Chinese movie Permanent Residence:

Ivan (Sean Li) has been searching an answer to a lifetime question: Where will we be after the present life? On the way, he went thru a difficult passion with Windson (Osman Hung), a straight guy, made a longtime friendship with Josh (Jackie Chow), a Palestinian, experienced the death of his beloved elderly, witness the wedding of his brother (Yu Hong Lao) and the birth of a nephew. Eventually he designed a permanent residence at his own soil to host all his love ones for the next life, in case there is any, while his friend Josh created a home at the Dead Sea for those not so much loved.

Permanent Residence explores, in complete abandon and full nudity, the life story of a young man who pursues an impossible love with his straight boyfriend and contemplates on the mortality of his loved ones. Permanent Residence exudes a deep understanding and sensibility towards the important issues involved in loving, living and dying.